Wednesday, October 1, 2008
I Have a Problem. But i Forgot What It Was
Let me preface this entry with an anecdote.
I was in Nova Scotia. I rode my bike to get groceries. i collected all my items and went to the till line up. Then i got up to the cashier, reached into my pocket and realized i'd forgotten my wallet. Oops. The cashier generously set my stuff aside for me.
So then i had to ride my bike all the way home. Then i watered the plants. Played guitar. And then went back to the store. Went into the line up, reached into my pocket and realized...
i like recounting this story because it's kinda funny and cute. it also describes my absent-mindedness at its best.
i really don't want to be absent-minded anymore. Screw funny and cute. i think i should be a touch more... responsible by now.
i've been thinking about this because the other day i was meeting a friend to go to the Modern Sky Music Festival. She is new to Beijing. She didn't have a cell phone.
So we arranged to meet at a subway stop at a designated time.
i was stressed that i just missed my bus. But then i was happy when the following bus still got me to the station on time. She wasn't there. So i waited for 25 minutes. Then i recalled that she'd mentioned the subway station Fuchingmen, and i went to Fuxingmen. So maybe she meant Fuchengmen, which was 1 stop away. So then i ran around, taking the subway between the 2 stops a couple times.
By then it was 55 minutes later, and she was nowhere to be seen. i figured that was enough so i headed off for the festival.
15 min later i got a phone call. My friend had borrowed someone's phone to ask where i was. "Um, it's after 12:30," she said.
Oops, i had mistakenly been waiting since ELEVEN thirty. Hm. What a lot of totally unnecessary energy and stress spent. Luckily, she was super mellow and understanding about it. A stroke of luck i certainly couldn't expect from others.
This sort of thing happens more frequently than i care to admit. Once i went to a concert and showed up a week early.
Details craftily evade me. i don't know how, but the sneaky buggers do it.
My meditation hasn't seemed to help me much in this respect.
I really am at a bit of a loss as to how i can deal w/ this aspect of my personality.It's like the importance of things doesn't always hit home. Do i need to take more notes? Review any and all information?
If anyone has ideas, i'm open.